Yesterday, bored with the regular channels i switched to KBS. Whenever i’m bored with same old programs on the local channels I automatically switch to this Korean Channel.
I’ve been curious with Koreans these days. I’m not into K-pop though but with Cha Tae-Hyun and Joo Won. They have completely opposite personality but they are my ideal men.
Anyways, as i said, yesterday as i watch this show “Human Condition”. They were given a task to find how many true friends they have. As i was watching them think of their friends i was also thingking how many true friends i have. I have 1 or 2 friends i think but lately i haven’t talk to them. Busy with our own personal life. Me, with work and them with their families.
I’m not the kind of person who invest on friends. I focused so much on how i’m going to keep this life running even if i don’t like it, i just have to. I can’t do anything about it.
Depression strikes again. Im getting fed up with this emotion i can’t control. I wanted to cry and shout but i don’t have the luxury to do that because i am in a room with people who don’t know what i’m going through. I can’t open up with friends, with family because they’re not used to people who’s life is full of drama.
I miss my parents. I wish they’re here. I didn’t experience having my mother beside me. I want to have a mother!! I miss you soooo much!!
I don’t have friends! I don’t have family! Life is hard! People are mean! I hate my life!!